Planning life

Life, is it really something you can put together and plan? I tried, man did I try. I had so many ideas and plans that I was GOING to do, the problem was putting them into action. I gave myself a timeline and told myself that I was going to to to organize and plan these seemingly chaotic events that happened everyday. This idea came into my mind when I was younger and I would see how crazy my parents would be running around with three kids and I as a very naive child looked at the chaos and thought “Why do they make it more complicated then it needs to be?”. See, in my mind I could easily solve their problems of confusion and missed appointments just by organizing and prioritizing their day better. Could that have really helped them? Sure, but I wasn’t the one putting in the energy and effort to actually do it. Lesson learned, it is easier said than done. I still thought though “once Im older if I start organizing my life as soon as I have enough responsibility I can keep the momentum up”. Did that happen? You guessed it. No. I will admit at first I was a very organized, on top of it, type A kind of person, soon that faded when self doubts and well life set in. More distractions and let downs then I ever could’ve imagined interfered. I had to learn the tough lesson of overcoming obstacles which took me longer then I wanted to admit. I was diagnosed with ADHD, and the medicine I was prescribed ultimately took me off track, instead of helping it gave me major anxiety and I had difficulties staying organized and gave up. The medicine was very counter productive. Life is messy and doesn’t make much sense, but one thing I’ve learned is it is truly about the journey and not the destination. stay motivated, work hard, be kind.